Gift of Love

Winter blues

I stand sadly by my window
Watching as winter once again
Claims all that surrounds me

I once loved this season
Of cold windy blow,wool socks
And fires that keep me warm

But now  I dread of stepping outside
For I know  I will never again
See your footprints next to mine

Ifugao,Philippines

To my Adrian and Jericho

Oh,how the years go by,
Oh,how time can certainly fly
From once just thought in far away dreams,
now in my arms and in my eyes gleam
the presence of u
Your laughter and smiles
which go on for miles,
Warm my heart and soul.
You're growing up so fast,
As i wish each moment with u to last forever
My little boy will someday be a man
and right by your side i will forever stand
I will pick up the pieces when u fall
I will hold your hand and help u stand tall.
And when the day comes when you are on your own,
Never feel that you are alone.
I am always right there in your heart.
Always remember whatever you go through
that no matter what,I will always Love u.

Struggle... Struggle....!

I don't mind working hard
and making things alright,
But the problem is that there is no
peaceful end in sight.
Continually working and struggling
to make ends meet.
I wish i could just escape from here in a
heart beat.

My struggles,My life.

As each day passes,my body tells me
it needs rest.
I look in the mirror and my face looks
like it lost its zest.
Striving everyday to be good,trying hard to stay calm.
But reality hits me again and it twists
and turns my arm.

Mama

Please love you self,
My daughter wrote
As we chatted away
About my upcoming trip
And yet my tears spilled over
As i bared my heart
To my 16 year old daughter(Kristine)
The joy of my life
The light of my eyes
The reason...
The reason i go an with my life
It's for her
I try to survive
And push on
For she still needs me

And she wrote
You need to apreciate yourself more mama
I can't imagine my life without you
Just thinking about my life without you in it
Just makes me wanna break down
She knew all my reasons
And yet she asked
Desperate to pull me out
To help me see the light
To remind me of who i was
Who still i am
And i soothed and comforted her
Knowing she'd worry
Her Daddy away
Yet she was the strong one
Mothering me
A shoulder to cry on

And after the tears those words of hers brought
I thanked her for loving me....
And she wrote
I can't help it.You're amazing..
You just need to give yourself a chance
Come home mama we'll have so much fun

And i smiled through my tears
Grateful for the Blessing I have in her
And my heart decided
Once more
Once more
For a little while longer
To fight the good fight
To survive
To let the Dreamer mama she knew
Come to life
The one all her friends loved
And said "was sooo cool"
That mama
That woman
I'd ask her to go on

And to try

To love her self.....

Sunset Peak view -Philippines

I began every morning afterwards
Awakening early enough              
To watch the sunset                          
Alone.                                                  
To prove to myself                            
That beautiful things still exist  
In my world.                                      
Even without you.